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cathy


Dark

Friday, September 01, 2006

Darkness creeps in at the most unexpected times and places. A phone call, a switch of the channel, a button. Individual moments of disaster, or those that are averted. Crys of help, when the murmurs alone should already have been heeded.

My brother, broken soul that he is, is in the hospital, on a suicide watch. Please pray, meditate, ot think positive thoughts in the ways that you know best. I don't know how to help him.

  1. Blogger Stephanie said:

    I am so very sorry. My thoughts are with you, your brother and your family.

  1. Blogger Chloe said:

    i am so sorry my dear friend. so very sorry. hugs to you. be strong now. xxxxxx

  1. Blogger Stephanie said:

    i'm so sorry to hear this cathy. we're here if you need us, for whatever that's worth from so far away.

    my thoughts are with you.
    [[hugs]]

  1. Blogger Connie and Rob said:

    Oh Cathy, I am so sorry. You know you and your brother will be in my thoughts and prayers. We care so much for you, so please feel free to call upon us to talk.

    Hugs,
    Connie

  1. Blogger DayByDay4-2Day said:

    Psalm 18:6
    But in my distress I cried out loud to the Lord; yes, I prayed to my God for help. He heard me from his sanctuary, my cry reached his ear.

  1. Blogger Pat Paulk said:

    Cathy you and he both will be in my prayers.

  1. Blogger fb said:

    Willing postives.

  1. Blogger blackcrag said:

    I'm very sorry to hear this, Cathy. I hope things turn out well, and your brother finds the help he needs.

  1. Blogger missy said:

    Sorry to hear this :-(

    Thinking positive thoughts for your brother and for you xx

  1. Anonymous erikku said:

    I'll keep him in my thoughts for you.

    May I ask what got him in this position? I don't mean to pry or anything, and if it hurts you too much, you don't have to say anything. I just have experience is all.

    xx

  1. Blogger Scholiast said:

    Oh, So sorry to hear about this. Trying to send positive vibes across the Atlantic to you..

  1. Blogger Trundling Grunt said:

    So sorry to hear that - I do hope you both get all the help and support that you need.

  1. Anonymous poet said:

    how sad for you and for your family. sending positive vibes, and prayers.
    poet.

  1. Blogger Ben said:

    Are your family seeing him regularly ?
    The help and support of family makes a big difference I'm sure.

    I wish him well and hope that he finds a way to release himself from his depression and darkness.

  1. Blogger Devil Mood said:

    Oh, that's terrible. I will send the best energies possible. I think the only way you can help him is by being there for him, even if that doesn't seem enough or what he wants.

  1. Blogger Cathy said:

    Thank you for your amazing words of support, my friends.

    My brother is still in the hospital and only his wife is able to see him. He is saying that he doesn't care about anyone and just wants to be dead. He is even saying that his daughters don't need him; that his wife will take care of them.

    There is no way for me to talk to him myself, other than to send a message of love through my sister-in-law. There is no phone in his room.

    I believe that this has been building for some time; he can't work, because of his epilepsy, he feels like a failure in life, his wife is obsessive compulsive, he has no control, no hobbies, no contact with friends. Although I have never experienced something like this myself, I understand his despair.

    Now to figure out how to pull him out of it.

    I am taking a break from blogging righ now, friends, as I'm sure you understand.

    I hope you are all well.
    xo
    Cathy

  1. Blogger Heidi said:

    Cathy..So sorry to hear this..My heart, prayers and positive thoughts go out to your brother , you and your family. Sending strength he will come through this..HUGS~

  1. Blogger Berlinbound said:

    You and your family are in my thoughts today ...

    Peace your way.

  1. Blogger Vesper said:

    my thoughts and prayers are with both of you.

  1. Blogger sophie said:

    I am praying for him.
    This idea is so small but
    is there something "real" that
    you could get him to look
    forward to?

    Can you find someone who has
    been in his situation and could
    meet with him?

    Hugs, warm thoughts.

  1. Blogger missbhavens said:

    Oh goodness...not wanting to go on is the darkest darkness of them all.

    I'm sending you all the warmth I have...

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