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cathy


Narcissus

Saturday, December 03, 2005


Supreme Indifference
Utter and complete.
Can not describe
The pain which this causes.

You. You two.
How can you know.
When your eyes only see
In reverse.

You arbiter of everything
And nothing.
Look inwards and assess
What words do you merit?

  1. Blogger Cathy said:

    FYI: The strangest thing is happening. I can not post comments on any blogs with a word verification ; the same letters keep popping up "smenita" and then I type them in and it says they're not correct. Every blog with a word verification; same thing, even my own! So I removed the word verification and can not post comments on any blogs with one!

  1. Blogger Mise en Place said:

    Hu, I wonder why? I see that you commented on mine. When did you discover that you couldn't comment?

    That poem is DEEEEP! I'm afraid my braind doesn't go down that far, lol.

  1. Blogger Michelle said:

    OOOooooo, i love this post, i can so relate.....

  1. Blogger x said:

    i can only tell you about my own experiences concerning the last 2 lines. Encountering judgement all the time, words never being good enough, that's one of the greatest disappointments. It goes back to the age when i was little and my mother would never be satisfied with anything. A good person essentially, but soooo demanding. So every time this happens and i feel inadequate, it reminds me of this.
    It's just a defense mechanism these people use. It is not real indifference. xxx

  1. Blogger Cathy said:

    Connie and MomyBlogR;
    It was a brief bug.
    I was able to comment again shortly thereafter.

    As for the poem, I am not typically this deep; only when I am very very annoyed or hurt or upset.

    Michelle;
    You do. I know. :)

    Chloe;
    I wish I could decipher the full meaning of what I wrote, but unfortunately can not. Not here.
    (Have a great day!)

  1. Blogger fb said:

    I thought you were quoting a poem!

    That's meant to be a compliment...I hope you know what I mean.

  1. Blogger Skye said:

    It's really good, GOOD!

  1. Blogger Cathy said:

    fb;
    What a compliment! Thank you.

    Skyeblue;
    Too bad I can only write well when I am angry or sad.

  1. Blogger missbhavens said:

    I had the Bloggerbog, too. I think it has past...but it's really sllllooowwwwwww.

    I wonder what "smenita" means! I think you should incorporate it into a poem.

    That poem was sharp and painful. In a good way.

  1. Blogger Cathy said:

    MissB;
    I was getting paranoid that the blogbug had only infected me; you read my mind about smenita; I'm thinking...

  1. Blogger Heidi said:

    OMG Cathy..I thought I was the only one..Same thing happened to me last evening with the "smetia".

    I was going nuts trying to figure out why I couldn't post..I think I tried twice and it went through..But those blogs allowed all comments etc...

    Nancy was trying to help me figure out why.
    I even emailed blogger help.

    It's all good now..Weird.

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