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cathy


All I Can Do

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

From every experience in life we learn something. Even the most tragic events can teach us lessons about ourselves, others, life…Sometimes these are hard lessons; ones we would rather not have had. I lead a wonderful life, but these past few weeks have given me a glimpse of horror. It is easy for me to give in and slip back into my wonderful, comfortable life, but I still feel the slight tug of the necessity to continue to do something, even when I am told to do nothing. When does one stop, and say enough is enough? I was there, and to some extent, I still am. In the meantime, I have learned…

…that when you are trying your best to help someone heal, it can be twisted and turned into being meant to hurt
…that sometimes, the best thing to do might be nothing
…that people can be convinced that those that want the best for them and love them the most are against them
…that mental illness is something more real than I could ever have imagined
…that I can’t fix every problem that I set my heart and mind to. And this is perhaps the most frustrating of all…

My song for today: Chantal Kreviazuk "All I Can Do"
All I can do is love you to pieces
Give you a shoulder to cry when you need it

  1. Blogger Stephanie said:

    I don't know what to say except that you are doing a great deal by just being there. Just remember that throughout all of this you need to take care of yourself as well.

    *hugs*

  1. Blogger PEA said:

    My heart goes out to you xox

  1. Blogger fb said:

    I'm really not sure what to say in regard to your last posts...

  1. Blogger Cathy said:

    Thank you Stephanie;
    I realized by the weekend that I needed to start taking care of myself before I went mad.

    Pea;
    Thank you. xo

    fb;
    I know. I wouldn't know what to say either; I don't even know how to express the situation properly myself. The fact that there are people who come by and read my ranting thoughts give me comfort enough. So thank you for that.

  1. Blogger Trundling Grunt said:

    Even the kindes thought and word can be misconstrued. This must tear at you (I can't imagine your pain), but I'll echo what Stephanie said - there are others who also need you and so you need to take care of yourself so you can carry on helping them too.

    Take care.

  1. Blogger Chloe said:

    it's not going to be like that forever. you'll be appreciated for being there eventually, i am sure of this Cathy.
    Many hugs
    xxxxxxx

  1. Blogger Connie and Rob said:

    Cathy,
    You have been there for your brother and shown him you care. He will remember this...I know your worry must be so great right now but you need to get some rest for yourself.

    Hugs,
    Connie

  1. Blogger Pat Paulk said:

    All you can do, is be there when he comes back.I can't begin to imagine your pain, but do know I'm thinking about you.

  1. Blogger Ben said:

    That song is beautiful, and so is Chantal and it fits your situation Cathy.

    The last point you made about things being beyond your control is so profound particularly as the rest of your life is stable, caring and within your boundaries where your own decisions have a positive bearing on the outcome.

    You're tired of all this at times because all the positives you're throwing at this situation are bouncing back as negatives.

    I know you're getting weary Cathy, but keep firing the positive Cannon. Eventually the wall will break down.

  1. Blogger sophie said:

    Cathy - take heart and take
    care of yourself.

    I am thinking of you, hugs:)

  1. Blogger SkyeBlue2U said:

    Prayers and hugs coming your way.

  1. Blogger Heidi said:

    More prayers, hugs, thoughts and strength. Your a wonderful person, always remember that!

  1. Blogger blackcrag said:

    I'm sorry to hear your brother's problems are a source of division in the family.

    A similar thing happenned between my aunt and parents when my uncle fell sick on holiday a couple yeras ago.

    I don't know why people seek strife in the family at a time when they need to be closest, to support one another.

    Didn't you say the wife wanted a divorce after she this thing with your brother started?

  1. Blogger HORIZON said:

    Beautiful photo Cathy- hang in there and hug your wee lads. l hear what you are saying and it IS very difficult knowing what to do.
    Bests

  1. Blogger Dr. Deborah Serani said:

    It is very hard to know when you need to limit your efforts. Seems so hard to acknowlegde sometimes.

  1. Blogger Devil Mood said:

    All I can say is that I feel that I totally understand what you're saying...every single thing.
    And that photo is brilliant!!

  1. Blogger holy chaos said:

    still praying for you...

    praying for unexpected encouragement and good things to happen in your life.

    smiles...

  1. Blogger Meow said:

    Dealing with mental illness can be hugely difficult and frustrating. My sister in law is bi-polar, and has gone through some really bad times, where we tried to help, but she didn't want it .... I won't go on. All we could do was be there if and when she needed us to be.
    In the end, we decided that we were neglecting ourselves in the effort to help her ... life goes on.
    She is currently OK, thank goodness, and we are all living normally again (until the next time).
    Anyway, my thoughts are with you, huge hugs to you and yours.
    Take care, Meow

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