Today Sucked
Monday, October 03, 2005I am totally consumed with the essay contest I am working on. I've never entered such a contest before. Not typical for me. But this one was made for me. I alternate between thinking that I will absolutely without a doubt win to thinking that I have turned overnight into a total nutcase and that I don't have a hope in hell.
It doesn't help that I had a crapper of a day. It started out great, but then the parents came over this afternoon. My mother. Oh my God. What a crazy. I really am at a loss for words. She is so self-absorbed. She can't lift a finger. My father kneels down and takes off her shoes for her. Oh Lord. It is so hard to take. She is so lazy and did I mention crazy?
I cook them dinner, balancing my 3 month old and 4 year old, making a nice quiche and running outside to gather fresh flowers all at the same time. She sits on the couch and reads People. No offer of help, nothing. Like everything about her and I; nothing. My father is bewildered. He knows this is not right, but is so caught up in her tailpipe that he does not know what to do. Has not had an independent thought for some time now. She asks when will supper be ready? I say close to 6. Oh well, I need to get home to let the cat out, and and and and . In other words, 6 is too late. I get things ready to have dinner on the table sooner. Not to appease her but to get her out of my house again. Maybe slightly to appease. Why can't I stop it? Mr.C. is coming home for 6. They leave by 5:50. Walk away from the table without picking up a plate. I am left with a house full of chaos. Mr. C. gets cold quiche. He sees them driving down the road as he is coming. Wonders why they are leaving so early. Thinks that it has finally happened. I have exploded and told them off. He thinks we will not see them for a year now.
Another day maybe. Out of a hot bath and onto the computer. Ahhhhhh.
9:38 PM
I wish Rosie could've offered more prize winning tickets. I have some many blog friends and I want them to all win.
I am going to see Rosie on October 15th FOTR.
~Deb